Lies can swirl inside you. Lies about your writing ability, your value, your future…
Amid intense passion or grief, it’s difficult to measure your words. And I don’t think we should try. There are situations which deserve a release of language equitable to the emotion–be it vulgar, be it shocking.
For example, in a prayer for the punishment of the wicked (Psalm 58) there’s anticipation for the writer to wash his feet in their blood. This isn’t your modern sanitized devo.
You can write the un-sanitized
This is my biggest motivation to encourage private writing and journaling. What a Psychology Today article describes as release: “Step one of catharsis is feeling what you feel. Step two is finding a way to release it, if not give it a voice.”
Perhaps you’ve known people who felt entitled to your secrets. Parents who were concerned about gatekeeping external actions of sin, or roommates seeking to exploit vulnerability rather than know you. Or worse, self-judgement. As though once it’s written, it remains as truth forever and you cannot toss it. This can make writing scary.
Which is a shame, because I’ve found that the best way to see the truth of something ruminating is to bring it out into the light and look at it straight on.
Edit it, burn it or password protect it
When you write it down to share with the Lord, he does not judge you or sever relationship. You do not need to fear his audience. It may not surprise you to hear his voice gently expose what is false. Especially if you are consuming as much truth as other media.
And once you’ve formed the initial thoughts, you edit them. This step of being honest and unguarded will have another benefit: Your fiction writing will be less overtly issue-driven, and you can get to the point of the adventure.
Just don’t use 1234 as the code for your private journaling app.
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